Thursday, May 11, 2006

steam

Your love is like a giant pigeon crapping on my heart. I know I said different before, but now I don't. I think I used to love you but now I don't. Some time has passed, and we have said many things. Some we meant, some we didn't. It doesn't matter what we said or didn't say, what matters is what we're saying, and doing, and thinking right now. I have no idea what you're thinking, and I'm pretty sure I don't want to know. I know you don't want to hear what I'm thinking because you don't want to know, but you will have to sometime. There's no sense in going through life pretending. Life's too short, live it up. Sure, yeah, whatever. Fear of new things, and loneliness, fear itself is so strong, we will do anything to not feel it. Death sometimes is more appealing than fear.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

To You

So you think you've hurt me? Humiliated me to the point where I'm bleeding inside out and the pain is so unbearable that I'd beg you to kill me just to make it go away? So you think you've won? You think you'll convince me to fall prey to the plastic emptiness you call life? I cried, and you laughed. I screamed, and you watched silently as I withered away into nothing, a black hole that seemed to swallow me till I was no more. And even then I stayed, because you made me believe I needed you. Because you seemed like the only option. And now you think you've made me weak. But what you failed to acknowledge is that I didn't die, the pain never went away, therefore, I am stronger. You laughed because I cried, because you believed me to be inferior, but now I laugh because I realized I'm not inferior, and you are nothing but a mere pimple on the butt of the world's smallest amoeba. You don't exist anymore...Or I don't acknowledge your existence. Either way, you are dead, and I am alive.

Monday, April 17, 2006

Lyrics

Two AM and she calls me cause I'm still awake;
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?"
"I don't love him, winter just wasn't my season."
Yeah, we walk through the door, so accusing their eyes,
like they have any right at all to criticize,
hypocrites, you're all here for the very same reason.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
and life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
no one could find the rewind button girl,
so cradle your head in your hands.
And breathe. Just breathe. Ooh, breathe. Just breathe.

May he turned 21 on a base at Fort Bliss,
"just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,
ain't been sober since maybe October of last year.
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
but my God its so beautiful when the boy smiles,
wanna hold him, maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
and life's like an hourglass glued to the table
no one could find the rewind button boy,
so cradle your head in your hands.
And breathe, just breathe. Ooh breathe, just breathe.

There's a light at each end of this tunnel you shout
cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
these mistakes you've made you'll just make them again
if you only try turning around.

Two AM and I'm still awake writing this song,
if I get it all down on paper it's no longer inside of me,
threatening the life it belongs to.
And I feel like I'm naked in front of a crowd,
cause these words are my diary screaming out loud
and I know that you'll use them however you want to.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
and life's like an hourglass glued to the table
no one could find the rewind button now,
sing it if you understand.
And breathe, just breathe. Ooh breathe, just breathe. Ooh breathe. Just breathe. Ooh breathe...Just breathe.